It's been eleven years - I think it's finally time to go home. I am a far different man now than when I left; an entire lifetime has passed since then. Time to go confront something I've been running from, time to accept what really happened. Time to heal and time to be reborn. Time to admit the truth I've denied for so long. Time to let life happen instead of forcing its hand.
FYI - my permanent retirement orders came in; no more waiting on the military bureaucracy. All ties are cut.